So, I’ve been kinda MIA lately from the blogosphere, I know… I’ve been super busy with the kids and Tastefully Simple, and just everything…
Hubs and I have decided that I need to go back to school to get certified to teach (something) to help bring in a decent income so that MAYBE ONE F-ING DAY, we can get a space of our own, whether we buy this house from my parents or we move the fuck out. Nine years is long enough, don’t you think??
Also, it will help things now be so tense around here. When money is tight, everyone is tense and snippy (including me, hard to believe, I know). AND I can get away from “Mom?” “Mommy?” “Mama!” “Can I have…?” and all the other gibberings of my two beautiful children. Not that I don’t love the constant stream of information about outer space that my son bombards me with or the constant clean up of sharpie marker off my daughter and the walls of her room (where the FUCK does she keep getting those markers from??). It’s just that I need a little space to be me and do something that I love.
Also, I’d like to make one thing clear, I don’t have a lot of patience for other people’s children. I went down that road when I worked for Torture Time back when I pregnant with Big Boy and it ended in DISASTER. Of course, day care and public school are two totally different things, I understand that, and am willing to give it a shot.
Now, where to start?? I need to get certified in NYS to teach. How do I find out what I have to do to get certified? Will any of my past college work count toward my certification? What do I want to teach? Elementary? Secondary? What subject if I go secondary? English would be the logical choice since my BA is in Creative Writing. What if I went for reading specialist or library and media specialist? Words are what I love. Grammar and writing, helping other people to write better, read better and understand and appreciate the written word- those are the things I love.
If I could get paid to write, THAT would be optimal. That’s what I was going for when I decided I would pursue a degree in writing. I was going to be the next Stephen King. Then I had my first child and that WHOLE thing went right out the window. Whenever I get the itch to write, I sit at my computer and what comes out of me sounds stupid. As I write this, I’m considering scrapping this whole post because who wants to listen to me whine about having writer’s block and question how to go about going back to school?
The truth is, I don’t like change. I am a creature of habit and going back to school to pursue a degree and (let’s face it) START my career is SCARY. I’ve been out of the workforce for eight years. I can only imagine how hard it’s going to be to adjust. I just hope I can do it without completely losing my mind…